Hi! I have been browsing this site for a couple of weeks now...I really love it!
I just thought that this is pretty much the only place where I can get any feedback about my specific situation. Thank you very much for taking the time to read my post.
So, as someone said somewhere on this site, first cousin marriages are somewhat common in other cultures. For example in China, marriage to your mothers sisters daughter is considered ok (which is the way my parents are related).
The thing is, its a common belief in the family that children of cousin marriages should not marry even way far off relatives, let alone first cousins. The specific problems that may arise with that kind of marriage are not generally talked of, its just implicit.... there may be vague complications with children, too much similar blood etc. And another problem is that since we live in the U.S. many of my friends etc think its weird as its kinda socially stigmatized (as you all know).
You can guess where this is going.....I have strong feelings for my first cousin (my fathers brothers son at that). He lives really far from me but we see eachother some summers when the families get together. I always had weird feelings around him but during a recent trip is when it hit me. When the holidays were over I still couldnt get him out of my head. Its like a continuous buzz in your head from the moment you wake up....even in your dreams. After he left we chatted a lot on aim but then he just dissappeared and doesnt come online anymore and still I cant get rid of the thought of him. I'm not really sure if he even thinks about me in this way....sometimes I think so and sometimes a think I am just deluding myself.
So, do you think that this cant go anywhere since my parents are cousins? Arrrg...should I even be asking this question since I have no idea how he feels...should just try to forget him and move on?? Woah, this is pretty long so I'll stop typing now...