Wow, thanks for the replies. D: Im glad you liked my previous post.
I know that it cant be easy for her, she must have many conflicting emotions as a girl of her age must have. I try not to be pushy and try to talk to her casually and such. Once in a while i try and text her, but she takes hours or even days to write back, and then it is short and neutral answers.
I wrote her a handwritten letter for her 18th birthday last summer, it went something like; "You are a sweet and wonderfull girl, i allways appreciated our time together" and so on, very platonic. And then i mentioned this tension between us and rounded of with that i loved her, but not exactly in what way. The idea was to not scare her away and see how she would react.
I only saw her twice since then and both times she was more chatty than usual, but abit more distant.
One thing i have noticed is that after people start moving around at gettogethers, she allways finds her way to sit next to me. Also when im conversating with someone, i can see her staring at me intensely.
For now it feels like we are stuck and that it will take time. Even though every second feels like a year, i will wait a thousand lifetimes if i have to.
I am just afraid she might settle with someone else, and i would be crushed if she ever brought a boyfriend around even though i realize it might be good if she tried dating other guys so she might realize im the one for her.
Oh man when i start writing i just keep going, sorry for the long post