Sooo, my first cousin and I are currently 21 and 23. We live 500 miles apart. We have been close ever since we were around age 13. Since we lived so far apart we never really talked or hung out like I did with my other cousins. She and her family would come and visit every summer and Christmas. Ever since I can remember when I looked at her even as young teens/kids I knew I felt different about her then my other cousins, she was so beautiful. I remember her coming to visit I would get soo excited to see her and we would hang out every day she was here. And when she left I felt empty inside. I remember getting my first cell phone and we exchanged numbers. We talked every day for hours about anything, everything, or nothing at all. We were super close. We could tell each other our problems without worrying about being judged. I even spent $500 on a plane ticket to go see her when I was 15. As I got older I realized I loved her. As time went on we dated other people. (I hated all of her boyfriends), mainly because I was jealous of the fact they could have what I so badly wanted. She likewise hated my girlfriends, because they caused us to become distant for a couple of years. But it was hard for me to please everyone. I wanted to tell her then how I felt. I knew she wouldn't understand though, so I continued to hold my feelings for her inside.
Then, when I eventually had my own place she came for a visit. This time we were both older, I was 19. We had a few drinks one night and had our first intimate encounter. I couldn't believe it at first. I thought it was only possible in my dreams. All the time we were younger I had imagined what it would be like to kiss her and hold her hand, and everything else along with it. It was awkward at first. But over the next two years we visited more frequently and continued to be intimate. We had tons of conversations about how we could never be together because of all of the negativity it would bring. This hurt me more then anything. I had been in love with her for so long I couldn't stand the thought of being so close but not having what I had wanted and waited for so long.
Finally, this summer I went up there for a visit. It was the most special time I've had in my whole life. We kissed, held hands, and it was just like we were a couple. It came time for me to leave and she didn't want me to leave. She told me she loved me and didn't wanna be without me. I've never been happier. Now we are planning on taking our relationship to the next level and move in together. We both agreed that no one else makes us this happy and we want to spend our lives together. We're in love and nothing can stop us I've never been happier. Some people go a whole lifetime and never find happiness and I'm in love with my best friend.