Hello everyone, I am new here, never new these kind of forum does exist, or never cared. Why? never thought I will tell her.
I will go in detail, so please give me some advice. I am 25 years old male, I love my 19 years old cousin sister, who is daughter of brother of my mother. This love is not like love at first sight, rather it is a slow process which developed from likeliness, to crush, to love, and now I think it will be very difficult for me to survive without her.
So, I finally decided to just get done with it, do or die, if she says she loves me too then its great, and if she says no, then its good too because atleast I can be practical and move on with it. I am waiting for the right moment to do it.
I have not told anyone yet, she will be the first to know it. So I will tell things that happens between us and why I think that there is slight chance that she likes me too. I will get into some little details, so you people can give me a better advice, please be patient, and read it fully. I will write in slight details, and in full details if there is good support for me.
So, how is it between us? Well as I already told she is six and half years younger than me. This gap is huge, but I am helpless, its not like I willingly selected her in my heart, it was not under my control. We are quiet frank with each other, there is almost no formality between us. We generally meet in family functions, so its not like we meet regularly. I met her last on 6-7 of this may, and before that on dec 16 and before that on july 16 and before that two times on april 16. There were also few times where we visit each others' house for few hours only. I can go on all night like this, but its like we meet only few times in a year, or sometimes only once or twice a year, all depends on the frequency of these family functions. Whenever or whereever we meet, from the last year, I feel like there is always some kind of emotional attachment not only from my side but her side too.
How she behaves towards me? Now this is the most complex thing I has ever witnessed in my life. Her behaviour towards me ranges from like, wants to be with me all time to extreme "dont care about me". Since we generally meet in family functions, we are generally very close during those days when we meet. Its like when she becomes free from family things, she always tries to come to me rather than going towards other cousin, tries to be with me, always asks me for something important, and always asks me for unimportant things too, sometimes it did clicked to my mind that she is just using me, but she is innocent type of girl, and she does anything I ask her as long as she can do it. These are the times where I believe that I am more than just elder cousin brother to her, but the nightmare starts after these family functions which is in next para.
So, what are these nightmares? Since texting or calling is the only way to be connected right now, we cousins, all of us never made a habit of calling needlessly, that lefts us with only texting. So texting is the biggest nightmare for me. She very rarely texts me in first place like Hi, how are you. Only texts when she needs some help or for telling some info or wishing something like friendship day. And even on top of that, bigger issue is that when I try to chat with her by texting her first, she rarely replies immediately. only replies immediately only when there is some work or family related texts, not on casual texts. And after some texting like 5-6 messages, always replies with conversation texts like "ok". Never tries to extend these texting. But if you people are going to say that she just doesnt like texting, the you are wrong. I have been with her a lot of times, and I have always seen her reply to her friends immediately, even though she is busy, so its not like that she just doesnt do texting, she just doesnt reply to me. She used to reply me a lot during nov 16 to jan 17 but I dont know what happened after that. I texted her on 11th may and still there is no reply, even though she comes online as seen from her "last seen on" or from status updates.
For all those who is not gonna read all these things, I am gonna write it in short. When we meet in family functions, there is always very positive response, but the moment we leave each other, there is almost next to none casual texting.
So please tell me, how to propose her, as I have decided to do it. And if you people want more details, I can narrate things in more details too, but first I am waiting for few helpful responses.
ONE THING, PLEASE HELP ME, I AM IN DIRE NEED ALL OF YOUR HELP, IT WILL REDUCE BURDEN IN MY HEART, ATLEAST HERE I CAN WRITE THINGS FREELY, PLEASEEEEE, PLEASE DO REPLY EVEN THOUGH IT IS A SMALL ONE.