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CousinILoveYou last won the day on January 5 2018

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  1. As far as I can tell it seems to be fixed now. As I posted this nearly a month ago, I was worried that the staff had lost interest in the site. Should that ever happen, please let me know, as I believe this site to be an important resource of factual information in a world full of misinformation and would not wish for this place to ever go under! People need to be well informed and educated with facts. Again, thanks for resolving this issue.
  2. This will be my final update. I do not want to go into the details, but I basically got confirmation that all she wanted was the stuff I could provide (which explains why she only seemed to want to conversate when things were coming her way or when she was asking for money). If it were anyone else, I wouldn't care about her now. I'd be pissed off for a brief moment and I'd write her off for good (end of story). But as I said from the beginning, I have nothing to compare with how I feel for her. It's different with her, it always has been. With the realization of how things are
  3. I did offer, you are right, and if she was using me, it would be my own fault. You are right it is driving me up the wall. I have no words to express or describe how strongly I feel for "AV" or how much an impact and a hold she has over me. I am 36 years old and in all my life, I have nothing to compare the feelings she brings out in me. Perhaps this is what love really is and I only just now discovered it. That is not to say I have not been in other relationships (was even married once, myself). But somehow this is "more". I do not know how else to explain it. Even when I was dat
  4. I have been over with the flu for a while now and the problem is I feel like I have been used. I never thought she owed me anything. We have had no contact except text messages that seem to go like this "Hey, I'll call you at 5 today" "Sorry, 5 is not good, I'll call you at 8" "Sorry I did not call last night, I'll call you tonight at 5" Sorry, 5 is not good, I'll call you at 8" "Sorry I did not call last night, you can call me at 5" "Sorry, I got your message, you can call me at 8" "Sorry, I got your message, I can call me at 5" Rince and repeat, inde
  5. It is nearly 10 pm and she sent me that text in the morning (nearly 12 hours ago). I have not heard back from here since. Here is the message I sent her just now. She'll either respond or not. I am deeply heartbroken beyond words. It took a lot for me to admit my feeling for her and a lot more to make her know how I felt. I always imagined it would have been better than this. I cannot express to anyone in words on exactly what I am feeling right now. The pain is so deep it is physical. " I put blind faith and trust in you from even the beginning. I came out of the blue a
  6. I just got this text: "I wasn't ignoring you. I misplaced my phone at work and just got it back. I have to go to the store for my mom to get her something to eat. I'll call you in a bit" I do not know what I should say in reply as I am honestly losing faith and at the moment, I hate myself for even saying that out loud (let alone think it). I want to believe it is just me and all my fears are in my head. I love "AV" and do not want to have any doubt between us. But after a week of text with times to call or wait for her call, only to be given more text with times to follow those
  7. Here is an update, but I wish it was a good one. We talked once on the phone a week ago and the conversation was the usual one you could expect between cousins, mostly how she has no family on her father's side there for her and how we first met and how we've both been since then. The call eventually ended because she said she needed to take care of her mother, but that she still wanted to continue this convo, just not over the phone, and to text her right away (her words). Well, I did and was basically two text that night on how she was happy to hear from me and how she wanted to hook up i
  8. Someone new joined and I presume after reading my post, asked me for advice. It gave me the opportunity to write down some of my thoughts concerning all this, so I figured I'd share with you all the reply I gave them. "Since I have never fully and actively before pursued my cousin until now, I doubt I should be the one giving advice. Although, I would believe you should treat your cousin with love, honesty, and respect, always. Let that person know that you will be there for them and will never leave their side. Let them know they can count on you and depend on you too. But do
  9. Your site is a valuable resource and at the moment, I notice that your main page has images which are not loading because of the mix of SSL and NON-SSL linkage. If you need help fixing things, please send me a message I'd be glad to help, as I do have some administration skills, having my own community as well.
  10. Right now, if that is true, the feeling is very mutual. All I want in this world is to be by her side. Yes, I have a strong desire to get better, sooner rather than later. The problem about that is I'm one of those lucky few who nearly never gets sick, even when everyone else around me is dropping like flies, I remain seemingly immune. I can go years without getting so much as a cold. I guess I am lucky that way. But on the downside when I do finally fall ill, I feel completely useless and it takes me what seems like forever to get well again. At the moment, I wish I could just snap
  11. I surely do hope so. But I understand it will not happen overnight. I messaged her on Facebook since I know she recently moved and I needed her new address. I wanted my intentions to be clear and I hope I was. I'm going to share how that chat went, only because I figure anyone who has been through this (cousins), may pick up on something (or not). I think it's a plus that she seems eager to see me soon and she outlined it again when I asked her if there was anything she needed right now (her wanting to see me). Here is chat: ME: I'd like an address for you so that I could
  12. I am serious and I think I am going to take this slow and try to work my way to a point where I can maybe tell her how I feel or at the very least, maybe she'll figure it out and if I am lucky, maybe feel the same. The last thing I want to do is rush things or add any drama to her life since she's already been through enough and what I really want to do is lighten her load. With a child on the way, the first thing I want her to know is that she can depend on me. I have decided with trying to provide for her needs and that of her expecting child.
  13. Here on the forum, there is a tab which reads, "Info Pages". This incorrectly redirects to the domain without first staring with WWW dot, which leads to the cert not correctly loading. You need to add the WWW to the URL.
  14. A part of me hopes somehow my cousin will be reading this. A part of me wants this to be a confession. So much so that I do not mind telling you I am in Massachusetts. Yet a part of me could never come out right and say any of this, as much as I might want to. I think if we are being honest with ourselves as people, we all have that dream of that "right" person. That person is obviously, not perfect, as they too have flaws just like the rest of us, but still, we have that image of what it would be like to find that right person. The sad truth is, many of us just settle over time for "as goo
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