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Me and my cousin that I LOVE, are not close before. He left Philippines when he was 4 and he grew up in other country.

When he was like 10 years old, he came back, I was just 6 back then, were not close and we didn't even talk before, and he left philippines again and he came back again like 3 years ago, that was 2009 and same thing, I don't even remember if we did talked before coz I'm shy to him and the thing is.. I have crush on him.

 

So now 2017, he came back again for like 7 YEARS. When the first time I saw him for so many years, I was like wow, he grew up handsome and gorgeous. Then at first I'm still shy to him, and I have this feeling that makes my heart beat faster, I know this sounds corny but that is really how I feel everytime I see him. Then we got close, everytime he go out he alwas asking me if I can go with him. At first I was so shy but I got used to it. We became so close, hang out alot, he always prefers to be with me.

Then the day before he leaves, there's the heavy feeling in my heart. Then at like 1 in the morning were still up, just the two of us. Just talking about things, then I can't take it anymore. I cried in front of him coz I'm so sad thinking that he's leaving tomorrow, he comfort me, hold my hand, and saying always that he will come back as soon as he can. Then he kissed my forehead for like 5 seconds before we go to our own rooms to sleep. I find it sooo sweet of him.

Then when since he left, he made facebook just for me so we can still have communication somehow, it sucks that we don't have the same time interval but we still find a way to atleast talk even if we just talk about holy crapoly!, I feel so entertained and he told me he also feel the same.

Since he left, everytime I dream he's always there, AND the thing is he also experiencing the same also!!

Then now he keeps on calling me 'boo boo', I searched what is the meaning of that and it says that its other term for 'my love'.

This is the first time I felt like this. It feels so strong. I feel like we have a connection but I don't know what kind of connection is this.

Please help me coz I don't know what to do anymore.

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Hi Freyaaa,

Welcome here in CC:

Are you a Filipina? Pinoy ka ba? If yes, go here and repost your story>>

Anyhow, to briefly respond:

I didn't quite understand what happened.

On ‎6‎/‎21‎/‎2017 at 5:21 AM, Freyaaa said:

When he was like 10 years old, he came back, I was just 6 back then, were not close and we didn't even talk before, and he left philippines again and he came back again like 3 years ago, that was 2009 and same thing, I don't even remember if we did talked before coz I'm shy to him and the thing is.. I have crush on him.

So you have 4 years difference. You weren't close before (didn't even talk!) and he went away. He returned 3 years ago (so I assumed it's 2014 because it's 2017 now). I don't understand what happened in 2009.

Also, if I can ask..if you are shy to him, do you think he feels the same? Do you think he is shy to you as well? Or not?

 

Pooch

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Hi Freeya,

 

WC here, uhm...kwento ka lang...hahahahaha

you're both stillstarting and, well 'kilig' factor is there yes, question is far along you both can withstand the LDR stigma?

And you both have got to express what you feel...looks like 'wala pa'

i guess you have to go on with the flow and if it happens it will happen...atm let things be....

9/9/2004

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