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My 1st cousin and my feelings.(help)

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Hello my, name is JD.

And iv fallen for my first cousin. I have told her about these feelings, and she was very kind to me. Tho she is very scared of the idea. Both of us grew up with religious influince tho md morr so than her. We spent most of my teen and adult life states away with visits once or twice a year. Tho i have allways had a strange intrest in her its when as adults she grabed my heart. I dont think anything will come from this, but its worth posting. Iv told her id never force anythong on her or pressure her. And to this day is still duper kind and nice to me. Tho my anxiety gets to me around her. What i need help with simple. What do i do with these feelings? I can never not find her atractive or awesome. So if nothing comes of it how do i act like just another family member? How do i deal with threse emotions?

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I don't think there is a simple solution to this. If you don't think anything can come of it because family backlash, that's understandable, pretty much the majority of people here have or had this fear and it can definitely be stressful. If you don't want to pursue a relationship that's completely up to you and her. I can't say for sure you'll ever completely rid yourself of your feelings for her but you could try hanging out with friends, not cutting off contact with her but maybe limiting it, picking up a hobby or countless other things to get your mind off of her and focus on you. Hopefully this helps, best of luck 😁

 

PS. I just wanted to add that most of the time people focus to much on what others May think and then it ends up not being as big of a deal..This isn't always the case of course but just thought I would throw that out there.

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