Jump to content
dhiemhie0127

Cousin Couples from the Philippines let's unite here

Recommended Posts

On ‎1‎/‎27‎/‎2018 at 6:05 PM, 9/9/2004 said:

lonelynsad23,

ignore what he is doing..,better yet, let it be...sa case ng marami kang utang, you can pay once meron ka na, lalayo doesnt mean tatakas ka...pasensya na at may hang over pa at hindi ko pa gaano mabasa lahat ng details...alam mo kasi toxic na ito and well, its not good for you or for your cats...lalo kapag highly emotional ka, baka mag break down ka bigla at walang pader ka na sasandalan....isipin mo muna sarili mo...yun na muna...walang mali kung aalis ka sa lugar kung saan sobrang lunod ka na sa hirap..so what kung may utang ka? tatakas ka ba? uulitin ko...sarili mo muna...damn hindi ako naging ganyan sa Xgf/cous ko...tsk tsk...anyway sarili mo muna and of course your cats ( dog and cat lover ako )...it will do you good

9/9/2004

I miss u dude! hahaha. Ang ganda ng sinabi mo. Yep. Toxic na nga talaga so mas makakabuti talagang umiwas. Kaya lang, dehins naman natuturuan ang puso eh, sooooo... talagang ganun ang buhay. lol

 

Lonelynsad23,

Ano bang paboritong ulam ni cous-bf mo? Baka naman kasi hindi ka marunong magluto kaya di siya madalas pumunta diyan? :D hehe..

 

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
On ‎1‎/‎27‎/‎2018 at 6:27 PM, Lonelynsad23 said:

This is the funny/ tanga thing

Lumuhod lang siya at nagsorry tinanggap ko na ulit. Di ba ang tanga tanga. Mahal na mahal ko yung gagong yun. Pero ang sakit sakit na. Nakita ng boss ko na sobrang emotional ako so she said take a break. Pinauwi niya ako. Kung regarding sa emotional breakdown. i have, multiple times sa relationship na to. Nung una niya ko hiniwalayan natanggap ko na in the end eh. Natanggap ko na. Kaso binalikan niya ko ng binalikan. 

Wasak na wasak na ko. 

Ang gagago ng mga lalaki! Lahat na binigay mo naghahanap parin

Gusto ko na magpahinga. Forever

ang nagtutulak nalang sakin para kumilos eh baka kung san mapunta tong mga pusa pag nagpakamatay ako. At yung sakit na madudulot sa kapatid ko at lola ko. Nothing else matters in my life. The way people I love treat me, parang wala akong kakwenta kwentang tao. Tapos magtataka siya kung bat ako naawa sa sarili ko? Eh pucha walang ibang naawa eh. Edi ako nalang

Cheers! :D

Haha! Ansarap niyong pag-untuging dalawa. LOL :D

Hay buhay.

Eh buti naman at nakipag-ayos siya sa iyo. Alangan namang iwanan ka niya? Ibig sabihin nun eh mahal ka nun! Tsaka bakit mo nga naman kasi inistalk yung facebook niya? Di naman siguro siya nakikipaglandian....? Baka nakikipagkaibigan lang..? Alam mo yun? Eh medyo babaero si bf mo eh haha pero di ibig sabihin na di ka niya mahal or may mahal na siyang iba or so on and so forth. Di ka naman niya pinapabayaan eh, diba? :)

 

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

@pooch hindi naman. Pasensya na. Masyado kasi talaga ako emotional. Parang sunod sunod lang kasi. Andami na nga nagsabi sa inyo ( mga lalaki) na baka daw friendly lang. gumawa pa nga ng kanta ang parokya tungkol dito. Kelangan daw kasi niya ng network para sa mga negosyo niya. Kagabi kinausap ko na na kung ganito lagi maghiwalay na kami. Nagulat siya kasi sabi niya di daw niya naisip kahit kelan makipaghiwalay kahit na daw napakapraning ko. Kaya di daw siya makapaniwala na ako pa daw mauuna. 

Nung nagloko kasi siya dati binigay niya password nya sa fb. Ngayon ayaw na niya baka daw kasi mapraning lang ako sa kung sino sino nakikita ko sa fb nya

kung sa pagluluto oo hahahah. Konti lang alam ko lutuin pero gusto naman niya adobo ko saka tuna penne

Edited by Lonelynsad23

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
3 hours ago, Lonelynsad23 said:

kung sa pagluluto oo hahahah. Konti lang alam ko lutuin pero gusto naman niya adobo ko saka tuna penne

Hahaha. Kaya pala eh. :D

Tingnan mo si 9/9/2004, ang galing magluto niyan. The best! haha. Dapat sa kanya ka magpaturo. :P hehe. 

Pramis, mas pupuntahan ka ni bf mo niyan pag nagkataon. hehe..

Diba no, 9/9/2004? :D

 

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
37 minutes ago, pooch said:

Hahaha. Kaya pala eh. :D

Tingnan mo si 9/9/2004, ang galing magluto niyan. The best! haha. Dapat sa kanya ka magpaturo. :P hehe. 

Pramis, mas pupuntahan ka ni bf mo niyan pag nagkataon. hehe..

Diba no, 9/9/2004? :D

 

Pooch

Lonelynsad and Pooch,

 

Uhurm may PF ang pagtuturo ng luto

ahahahahaha

Keilan nabuhay ka kamusta na ang lakad ng buhay sayo?

Lonelynsad...tama na, hayaan na...para sau naman ito maging manhid ka muna

Pooch...more power and blessing sa inyo dude

aral mode at alak mode ako...message message lang mababasa ko naman lahat

nga pala pooch, nawala ata si model, hindi na nag paramdam

9/9/2004

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Anu-ano naman ba ang pumapasok sa isip mo?

Tsaka isa pa, panget maging manhid no. Pag manhid ka, edi hindi ka naging masaya? Naaalala mo pa ba yung mga maraming beses ka niyang pinasaya? Na abot-hanggang tenga ngiti mo? And how will you appreciate him and his efforts kung manhid ka? What about yung damdamin mo sa pagsukli sa pagpoprovide sa iyo ng means of living? Kung hindi dahil sa kanya san ka pupulutin niyan? Kung manhid ka, di mo mapapahalagahan ang mga masasasyang bagay sa mundo no... Panget manhid ate.. Panget yun.. Panget.. Alam mo kung ano ang mas maganda? Aralin mo ang paborito niyang ulam tapos handaan mo siya. Maniwala ka saken!

Diba no 9/9/2004? hehe.. :D 

Pooch

 

Hehe.. Alam mo kasi ate lonelynsad23, nandito kami bilang mga kaibigan mo. Brutal na honest kung minsan, kunsintidor kung minsan. Tanggap na nating tanga ka at nagpapakatanga kay bf... 4 years na yan eh. Dati pa yan. So the best way talaga is to be a friend and make the most out of it na magiging masaya ka rin. Hindi naman natin makokontrol ang puso natin eh. diba? I don't need to tell you what you need to do kasi tapos na tayo doon eh. You already know what to do but the heart is greater than the mind for some people talaga eh and it's not your fault. It is nobody's fault. Talagang ganun ang ibang mga tao. Ako man minsan ganun din eh. diba? hehe.. Tsaka isa pa, kahit anong sabihin namin dito, you will still go on with what you want..no matter how toxic it may be..sooooo.. yep. We can only support you with your journey in this so-called life. :D Pero regardless, having said that, kung maaaral mo yung sinigang na baboy kung gusto niya ng may mainit na sabaw, mas babalikan ka nun pag nagdate kayo. Peksman! :D hehe.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
On ‎1‎/‎29‎/‎2018 at 8:37 PM, 9/9/2004 said:

Lonelynsad and Pooch,

 

Uhurm may PF ang pagtuturo ng luto

ahahahahaha

Keilan nabuhay ka kamusta na ang lakad ng buhay sayo?

Lonelynsad...tama na, hayaan na...para sau naman ito maging manhid ka muna

Pooch...more power and blessing sa inyo dude

aral mode at alak mode ako...message message lang mababasa ko naman lahat

nga pala pooch, nawala ata si model, hindi na nag paramdam

9/9/2004

Haha! May talent fee ba? Sige nga mageenrol nga ko sa klase mo dude. Teach a course tapos turuan mo si lonelyandsad23. LOL!

Sa side ko, okay lang naman kami.. I am planning to buy a house dito mga April (if everything goes well). Then once na may sarili na akong bahay, another year siguro para magkaroon ako ng leverage sa parents niya then sasabihan ko na uncle ko na kukunin ko yung anak niya. hehe.. Nakikiramdam-ramdam pa ako sa sitwasyon ng pamilya eh so naghahanap pa talaga ng tamang timing. But in the meantime, I am preparing myself na rin. Very supportive naman si gf kahit na inip na inip na. I make sure that she understands the situation and yung pagkaperfectionist ko minsan gets into her nerves kasi "ambagal" ko daw. Kako mabuti ng mabagal, basta sigurado! Anyhow, so yun ang nangyayari sa akin.... I'm still working dito sa University as an accountant ng isa sa mga colleges and siya naman sa isa sa mga ministries ng government. To be honest, kaya na namin dalawa kung ang iisipin lang namin ay mga sarili namin eh.. Pero isang consideration namin ay yung aging parents namin and so constant communication and time together really gets us to know one another.... Mahirap ang LDR brad, I find. I guess tama ka nga, nabless ako ng Panginoon at least magkasama kami sa iisang city. I can see her anytime I want and viceversa.

Si ate model, di na nagparamdam... Baka naging busy sa cosplay. lol.

Sige, itagay mo ko. Isang shot sa iyo, ice tea naman saken. Cheers! :D

 

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
1 hour ago, pooch said:

Haha! May talent fee ba? Sige nga mageenrol nga ko sa klase mo dude. Teach a course tapos turuan mo si lonelyandsad23. LOL!

Sa side ko, okay lang naman kami.. I am planning to buy a house dito mga April (if everything goes well). Then once na may sarili na akong bahay, another year siguro para magkaroon ako ng leverage sa parents niya then sasabihan ko na uncle ko na kukunin ko yung anak niya. hehe.. Nakikiramdam-ramdam pa ako sa sitwasyon ng pamilya eh so naghahanap pa talaga ng tamang timing. But in the meantime, I am preparing myself na rin. Very supportive naman si gf kahit na inip na inip na. I make sure that she understands the situation and yung pagkaperfectionist ko minsan gets into her nerves kasi "ambagal" ko daw. Kako mabuti ng mabagal, basta sigurado! Anyhow, so yun ang nangyayari sa akin.... I'm still working dito sa University as an accountant ng isa sa mga colleges and siya naman sa isa sa mga ministries ng government. To be honest, kaya na namin dalawa kung ang iisipin lang namin ay mga sarili namin eh.. Pero isang consideration namin ay yung aging parents namin and so constant communication and time together really gets us to know one another.... Mahirap ang LDR brad, I find. I guess tama ka nga, nabless ako ng Panginoon at least magkasama kami sa iisang city. I can see her anytime I want and viceversa.

Si ate model, di na nagparamdam... Baka naging busy sa cosplay. lol.

Sige, itagay mo ko. Isang shot sa iyo, ice tea naman saken. Cheers! :D

 

Pooch

Pooch, 

 

napaka sarap naman pakinggan...congrats

ako men, kahit ito nag fufunction may tira tira pang masasakit, kaya nga alcoholic mode pq hahahahaha...pero sige lang kaya pa naman, bearable....

Lonelynsad...listen...well marami ka naman kakampi at dadamay sayo...

oo nga si model nawala bigla na parang bula...what is this? what happen? ahahahahaha

9/9/2004

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
Quote

 

Hi Pooch..

dami ko natutunan At naka relate ako..kaya lang sa kaso ko..sinukuan na niya ako..ako naman learning to live mylife..Wala akong pinagsisihan dahil sa ilang buwan ng relationship namin naging masaya naman ako... masyadong komplikado situation namin..pareho kasi may sarili  na kaming may pamilya...inuna na lang namin ang kapakanan ng mga anak namin..sacrifice na lang namin ang nararamdaman namin... I think that is love for you learn to give up for the good of others.  Maybe sa next lifetime namin pag di na kami blood related..for now inspiration ko na lang siya sa buhay ko..pag naalala ko siya napapangiti na lang ako.... siya ang great love ko.... gusto ko maging masaya siya At successful siya sa lahat ng ginagawa niya.   Alam ko yung Love di mawawala... he will always have a special place in my heart...  Wala na kaming dapat ipag laban....Una mag pinsan buo kami...Pangalawa may sarili ng pamilya pa... kaya siya na mismo bumitiw..sinubukan ko ipaglaban..pero siya na ang tumalikod mag decide na gawin na namin ang tama... For now I’m healing my heart and stay focus for myself. 

 

Hi Ate

Welcome po sa CC. :) You mentioned na 2 years ago na po nagend yung relationship ninyo? Not to ask too much po ano, pero was it a secret or may nakakaalam po ba? Kapatid? Kaibigan? Anybody?

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
8 hours ago, pooch said:

Hi Ate

Welcome po sa CC. :) You mentioned na 2 years ago na po nagend yung relationship ninyo? Not to ask too much po ano, pero was it a secret or may nakakaalam po ba? Kapatid? Kaibigan? Anybody?

Pooch

Hi Pooch.. 

thanks for the reply..actually best friend ko lang and some college friends and his  best friend din sa work.  Wala sa Family namin.  Lalo na ang status ko sa clan namin, mataas tingin nila sa akin because of all my  accomplishment and no one would think, kasi di rin siya ang tipong papatulan ko.. he used to our helper sa bahay, my dad pays for all his school till he finished college and became successful.

Last time we talk when I visited sa Manila last year.  First, my intention is to start as clean slate. He response well, but at the end he back off.  Our story is very different, I don’t have any idea I was his childhood dream since highschool pa siya,   After 25 years he waited for me to comeback from the US.. then na corner na niya ako..that time was a perfect timing kasi I was miserable and not happy here in US, it’s been decade since I felt that kind of happines( that butterfly sa stomach mo and nawawala ka sa sarili because kasama ko siya), but we have to ended because marami masasaktan lalo na mga bata.  then the rest was history...I just wish the best for him.  He still my love of my life, maybe my twin flame?? So weird..kasi siya lang ang taong nahirapan ako mag move on.  Everyday I have to deal with emotional pain.  If only I can buy out this feeling, So I don’t have to wake up everyday with this pain..what scares me is that I have to leave with it ...It’s been more than 2 years but the pain still like yesterday.  Nakakatakot di mo maiiwasan pag cross ulit landas namin... buti na lang nandito ako sa US. If only no barriers...I am willing to give up everything..but the future of our kids matter most..both kids are in grade school pa..as what he told me..sacrifice na lang namin ang sarili naming happines para sa pamilya...right love at the wrong time ( ika nga sa song ni Barry Manilow)..?

 

There you go Pooch!! My little story !! 

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
On 1/30/2018 at 4:44 PM, Lonelynsad23 said:

Pano ba maging manhid. Lol. Andami kasi pumapasok sa isip ko. Nakakapagod na

Hi Lonelysad23,

Try to re discover yourself, find a hubby or selfdevelopment..go to gym..yoga is nice, self meditation.. do something para di mo siya maisip..I know it’s hard, but be kind to yourself..lalabas sa aura mo ulit and more attractive if you learn to appreciate and love yourself again..kasi my self confidence ka na ulit...I know it’s easy to say than done ... I’m still in healing process myself..

goodluck... 

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
On ‎2‎/‎7‎/‎2018 at 7:21 PM, Kulasa Manila said:

Hi Pooch.. 

thanks for the reply..actually best friend ko lang and some college friends and his  best friend din sa work.  Wala sa Family namin.  Lalo na ang status ko sa clan namin, mataas tingin nila sa akin because of all my  accomplishment and no one would think, kasi di rin siya ang tipong papatulan ko.. he used to our helper sa bahay, my dad pays for all his school till he finished college and became successful.

Last time we talk when I visited sa Manila last year.  First, my intention is to start as clean slate. He response well, but at the end he back off.  Our story is very different, I don’t have any idea I was his childhood dream since highschool pa siya,   After 25 years he waited for me to comeback from the US.. then na corner na niya ako..that time was a perfect timing kasi I was miserable and not happy here in US, it’s been decade since I felt that kind of happines( that butterfly sa stomach mo and nawawala ka sa sarili because kasama ko siya), but we have to ended because marami masasaktan lalo na mga bata.  then the rest was history...I just wish the best for him.  He still my love of my life, maybe my twin flame?? So weird..kasi siya lang ang taong nahirapan ako mag move on.  Everyday I have to deal with emotional pain.  If only I can buy out this feeling, So I don’t have to wake up everyday with this pain..what scares me is that I have to leave with it ...It’s been more than 2 years but the pain still like yesterday.  Nakakatakot di mo maiiwasan pag cross ulit landas namin... buti na lang nandito ako sa US. If only no barriers...I am willing to give up everything..but the future of our kids matter most..both kids are in grade school pa..as what he told me..sacrifice na lang namin ang sarili naming happines para sa pamilya...right love at the wrong time ( ika nga sa song ni Barry Manilow)..?

 

There you go Pooch!! My little story !! 

I see.. Thanks for sharing.

So sa US ka pala naka-based. Ako naman sa Canada. Same situation tayo ate when it comes sa 'reputation' sa clan. Pero the difference siguro is parehas kami ng cous-gf ko ng sitwasyon reputationwise. Walang discrepancy unlike you na it seems like nasa ulap ka and siya naman nasa lupa. When you said na "...at the end he backed off", kasi masakit din sa kanya yun. But I think na both of you figured it out naman na and so that closure was really needed. I'm glad that you had experienced yung ganung emotional love. I mean, if it worked edi good; but if not, like what happened to you, I mean, it's not like everything else have fallen eh, diba? Those stuff were still real, no.. Kahit papaano.. The fact is, you loved and that felt good and so it's all fair game... Shrug it off na lang ate and "lose like Pacman". I mean, lose 'like a boss' -- and not a sore loser, ika nga.  :) hehe.. diba?

Natuwa ako dun sa 'twin flame'. lol. Anyhow, are you still looking ba ate? I know that you are open on dating at this point and stuff.. May manliligaw naman ba as of late? Or sarado pa muna si puso? I just want to ask kung ano na ang state ng puso naten. hehe. Sabi niyo kasi 2 years na eh and so I'm pretty sure, isang dosenang drum na ng luha na ang naiiyak ninyo sa kanya -- aba worth it na yun! hehe.. *peace* Pero seryoso, I feel like kayo yung tao na she knows herself eh and is mature na to handle atomic bombs of emotions like this. :D And so you can just bank this episode in your experience and then hope for a brighter next one.

Whiiiiiiiich brings me to my next point. Napansin ko kasi yung handle ninyo is "Kulasa Manila". Were you in some kind of other forums before if you don't mind me asking? Or itong CC ang una ninyong forum na sinalihan -- ever? Kasi I was a member ng ibang forum din kasi and may nakainteract din akong Kulasa na taga-US noon like way back 9-10 years ago. Lol. I know it's a long shot so more likely na hindi ikaw yun but whatever. hahaha.

San ka sa US ate naka-base? BTW, Okey si Barry Manilow ah! hehe.. :D

 

Pooch

  • Upvote 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Hi Pooch, 

this is my very first forum, I used Kulasa because of my alma mater ( Scho?..hint..hint).  Yes, I leave here in US for more than 20 years, a State known for 10,O00 lakes, close to Canada as well.  I want to stay focus for self development ( very active ako sa gym, rediscover myself by taking Jiu-jitsu, Zumba and weight lifting), I focus on my career and start investing some property sa Philippines for future retirement.  I use the heart ache to inspire me to be a better version of me.  Kaya wala plano sa Love life, I have to learn to love myself and built my happines within myself..I just develop the thing I have control.   I’m not perfect, don’t get me wrong ... dumadating pa din yung WHAT IF and WISHFUL THINKING... He will remain part of me and have a special place in my heart.  If magkikita pa kami..I just let the tadhan decide that. 

Joining and reading this forum really helps me to heal and understand yung pinagdaanan ko,  Because of the people on this forum, made realized I am not alone.. Pooch, thanks for your input,  coming from the guys statement, nasak din siya when he backed  off.  

If you ask me how’s my heart ?? Mahal na mahal ko siya hanggang dun na lang yun.  I just let the nature take care of  it... hoping pag gising ko sa umaga..Wala na siya sa systema ko.

 

 

 

 

  • Upvote 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
1 hour ago, Kulasa Manila said:

Hi Pooch, 

this is my very first forum, I used Kulasa because of my alma mater ( Scho?..hint..hint).  Yes, I leave here in US for more than 20 years, a State known for 10,O00 lakes, close to Canada as well.  I want to stay focus for self development ( very active ako sa gym, rediscover myself by taking Jiu-jitsu, Zumba and weight lifting), I focus on my career and start investing some property sa Philippines for future retirement.  I use the heart ache to inspire me to be a better version of me.  Kaya wala plano sa Love life, I have to learn to love myself and built my happines within myself..I just develop the thing I have control.   I’m not perfect, don’t get me wrong ... dumadating pa din yung WHAT IF and WISHFUL THINKING... He will remain part of me and have a special place in my heart.  If magkikita pa kami..I just let the tadhan decide that. 

Joining and reading this forum really helps me to heal and understand yung pinagdaanan ko,  Because of the people on this forum, made realized I am not alone.. Pooch, thanks for your input,  coming from the guys statement, nasak din siya when he backed  off.  

If you ask me how’s my heart ?? Mahal na mahal ko siya hanggang dun na lang yun.  I just let the nature take care of  it... hoping pag gising ko sa umaga..Wala na siya sa systema ko.

 

 

 

 

wow ma’am,

i wish i can say that statement hoping pag gising ko wala na sya sa sistema ko...everyday i do that...tipong everytime i flush the toilet sana ganun kadali...pero talagang mahal na mahal ko pa sya...i just kept myself busy nalang and, well this move i decided while staying here sa PR, hope would heal me...and, well i am never coming back once nakaalis ako uli, it is just that hard and painful, that i, only choose places where i need to go habang nasa pinas pa ako..,memories and revisiting the places where you once go, make it more DIFFICULT...i dont even sleep in my own bedroom, because all of our times together were inside my room...not just the mature part, but also our child like behaviour when we once were ‘living in for almost 2 years’...i sleep mostly on the living room, drunk and para lang maka sleep ng maige ige...my youngest brother and his wife is helping me recover from it all...they suspected it before and inadmit ko rin para naman maintindihan nila side ko...which to my surprise, they have accepted me, us fully...but sadly she let me go and say she wanted a NORMAL life..like hell...ayun pinag palit nako and here i am, drained, tired, but fighting....just like you ma’am kulasa, and well i wish i can say that daily...when i wake up, i really do hope its out of my system...anyway more power to everyone

POOCH, miss you pare hahahaha, nawala na talaga si model

LONELYNSAD, i hope you’re ok, not posting ka na for a while, remember andito lang kami, kahit may mga dalang sugat, gagabayin ka namin

9/9/2004

  • Like 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

9/9/2004,

hi there, so your in Manila?? .. I’m with about what you’re going through.  But you have to help yourself.  Surround yourself with positive people.  You have to realize that chapter of your life have to end and you have to continue your journey, not because you have a bad and painful experience di mo na tutuloy ang buhay, stock ka na dun.. be kind to yourself, learn to love yourself, take care of it.... re create yourself again..it’s a process too, work hard for it to achieve that..do baby steps.. pag maganda na ang outlook mo sa buhay it will reflect sa aura mo.. you will start to invite positive vibes... pati ikaw gaganda At you look attractive... I don’t want to give you hope, sweet revenge...pag nag cross ang path ninyo ulit .. at least you can say “look at me now”... stronger and better woman.. and show your smile...smile ng panalo!!!so brush off that tears and umpisahan mo alagaan and sarili mo!! Bless you and your heart.  Take care!! If you need some pointer...dito lang ako!! 

Don’t think I am 100% ok...I’m in a process..parang construction building, on going pa..why do you think I’m here sa forum??..but I want to inspire as well... yung Love nandyan pa din... I still think of him ...I still cry but not that often... normal lang yun..nasanay na until manhid na...

Take care 9/9/2004

Kulsa Manila

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
13 hours ago, Kulasa Manila said:

Hi Pooch, 

this is my very first forum, I used Kulasa because of my alma mater ( Scho?..hint..hint).  Yes, I leave here in US for more than 20 years, a State known for 10,O00 lakes, close to Canada as well.  I want to stay focus for self development ( very active ako sa gym, rediscover myself by taking Jiu-jitsu, Zumba and weight lifting), I focus on my career and start investing some property sa Philippines for future retirement.  I use the heart ache to inspire me to be a better version of me.  Kaya wala plano sa Love life, I have to learn to love myself and built my happines within myself..I just develop the thing I have control.   I’m not perfect, don’t get me wrong ... dumadating pa din yung WHAT IF and WISHFUL THINKING... He will remain part of me and have a special place in my heart.  If magkikita pa kami..I just let the tadhan decide that. 

Joining and reading this forum really helps me to heal and understand yung pinagdaanan ko,  Because of the people on this forum, made realized I am not alone.. Pooch, thanks for your input,  coming from the guys statement, nasak din siya when he backed  off.  

If you ask me how’s my heart ?? Mahal na mahal ko siya hanggang dun na lang yun.  I just let the nature take care of  it... hoping pag gising ko sa umaga..Wala na siya sa systema ko.

 

Hah! I see... Naku, malapit lang pala eh. Winnipeg is just 6 hours away kung nasaan ako... Land of the living skies. :D Kasi wala ka namang makikita dito kundi puro patag. LOL. It's good that you focus on what will make you happy. Push mo lang yan ika nga. Dun sa what-ifs and stuff? Nah... I wouldn't go there. It's better if you remember him sa good memories. You know what I mean? It's better to stay that way. It's like ogling at a hot stud refraining him from talking  kasi once he opens his mouth, you will be turned off. LOL. Tingin ko ganun din yun --- ok na 'siya' sa happiness mo with him and you wishing him the best of everything.. You know? The what-ifs though!? Erase. Erase... Not worth it. ;) And so of course he has a place in your heart... di naman maiaalis yun eh.. and rightfully so, he is special to you, alam mo yun? Got to be... Pero yeah, hanggang dun na lang yun. Life is bigger than that eh, diba? :)

Musta naman diyan? Di rin biro ang Pinoy Overseas ah, diba no 9/9/2004? It's not easy.. You gotta be always on top of your game. And you have to learn to adopt. And you can only be real with the people whom you are close to. I hope you have friends and family together with you kahit papano.

In my situation, my cous-gf and I are on the same city. So that's a huge milestone sa amin. We are together for 15 years na...since we were in our teens. 2002 naging kami, my family migrated here sa North America then sumunod naman pamilya niya. It really was a long rough road na pinagdaanan namin. May halong LDR pa kasi and so on and so forth....just as typical relationship goes through. Ang sa amin nga lang, walang naging third party either on her side or on my side. So the trust is really there and we hold each other hands along the way. But since magpinsan kami, a huge hurdle talaga siya. Imagine, nasa Canada na ako ah -- where supposed to be legal ang cousin marriage... Yet, I really want to make this right eh, alam mo yun?

 

Pooch

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
11 hours ago, 9/9/2004 said:

wow ma’am,

i wish i can say that statement hoping pag gising ko wala na sya sa sistema ko...everyday i do that...tipong everytime i flush the toilet sana ganun kadali...pero talagang mahal na mahal ko pa sya...i just kept myself busy nalang and, well this move i decided while staying here sa PR, hope would heal me...and, well i am never coming back once nakaalis ako uli, it is just that hard and painful, that i, only choose places where i need to go habang nasa pinas pa ako..,memories and revisiting the places where you once go, make it more DIFFICULT...i dont even sleep in my own bedroom, because all of our times together were inside my room...not just the mature part, but also our child like behaviour when we once were ‘living in for almost 2 years’...i sleep mostly on the living room, drunk and para lang maka sleep ng maige ige...my youngest brother and his wife is helping me recover from it all...they suspected it before and inadmit ko rin para naman maintindihan nila side ko...which to my surprise, they have accepted me, us fully...but sadly she let me go and say she wanted a NORMAL life..like hell...ayun pinag palit nako and here i am, drained, tired, but fighting....just like you ma’am kulasa, and well i wish i can say that daily...when i wake up, i really do hope its out of my system...anyway more power to everyone

POOCH, miss you pare hahahaha, nawala na talaga si model

LONELYNSAD, i hope you’re ok, not posting ka na for a while, remember andito lang kami, kahit may mga dalang sugat, gagabayin ka namin

9/9/2004

I miss u dude! hahahahaha! *apir*

Pare, I feel you.. Alam mo ba, nakwento nga kita sa cous-gf ko eh. Kasi may favorite kaming lugar dito kung saan kami nagde-date. Sabi ko sa kanya, "Walang hiya ka. Pag pinagpalit mo ko sa isang nagmamountain-climbing, susunugin ko itong restaurant na to".

Bwahaha.. Tawa siya ng malakas eh :D

Anyhow, with all seriousness though, I pray that you don't give up pare. Minsan kapag nadedrain ka, it's a spiral down yan eh. Sometimes, you have to force yourself to go out, wag magstay sa bahay and really experience another chapter in your life. Alam mo yun? Eventually, it should not be a fight... Call some of your friends again and enjoy your freedom, gawin mo kung ano ang gusto mong gawin noon na hindi mo magawa nung kayo pa kasi nirerestriktahan ka niya. lol. You have to learn to make yourself happy. :)

Si Miss Model, oo nga, di na ata bumalik. I hope she's okay though. :D

 

Pooch

  • Upvote 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Hi Pooch, 

Seems you’re very responsible and truthful about your relationship..swerte ng cous/gf mo..1st or 2nd cousin ba kayo?? 

You’re brave man and my sense of direction...

wish you the best and sa love story ninyo..

btw..thanks sa advice.. I will achieve that eventually... ouchhhh talaga!!

Kulasa Manila

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
2 minutes ago, Kulasa Manila said:

Hi Pooch, 

Seems you’re very responsible and truthful about your relationship..swerte ng cous/gf mo..1st or 2nd cousin ba kayo?? 

You’re brave man and my sense of direction...

wish you the best and sa love story ninyo..

btw..thanks sa advice.. I will achieve that eventually... ouchhhh talaga!!

Kulasa Manila

First cousin.

My mom and her dad ay magkapatid. The thing is though, they are 'magkapatid' but 'questionable'. And the reason why I say that is because her dad is not fully sure whether they have the same dad. But suffice it to say, both of them have the same mom. So either they are full blooded siblings or half-siblings. And so we are first cousins.

Responsible? I have to be! lol. Otherwise, wala kaming patutunguhan ni gf. And besides, I think that's makes a guy attractive -- isn't it? I dunno.. and it just adds confidence na rin which spirals things upward. The problems and stuff like those, of course sure dumarating yan, pero it's how you deal with it kasi and sometimes, even avoiding them before it gets to your plate. For example, I want to be financially stable para sa future namin ni gf. It means I cannot just buy a brand new car even via loan or something like that even though I can...I'm pretty sure you know what I mean. ;)

Nabangga kasi ako lately. Meron akong 70K lang na 1998 Oldsmobile. I just bought it for less than $3K 3 years ago. Eh binagga ako sa intersection just about a month ago. I'm okay naman, walang galos, walang anything. But my car is a total wreck. Sabi ng mga tao sa paligid ko, "Uy panahon na to get a new one!" blah blah blah... My sister is even willing to loan me something for me to get something na may dating talaga if you know what I mean... My parents back in Vancouver are even willing to 'lend' me (which is quite ironic given that they are already on their pensions) money para makabili ako ng talagang bigating kotse na "maipagmamalaki ko daw". Oh please...

But then I got my own plans. Syempre gusto ko kasama rin si gf sa plano kasi we are together eh. I got a 2004 Buick for about $4300 lang. 144 clicks. I bought it cash. O edi walang problema! diba? ;) I got a respectable car. An upgrade. Without mortgage. Without debt. Carry ng budget. And okay naman ang kotse. Sounds good! Heck, mas mura pa insurance ko! LOL!

Anyhow, I gave that example sa itaas kasi nakatira ka sa North America eh, and you can definitely relate. hahaha. Thanks for wishing me the best. MInsan kailangan rin naming mga guys ng tapang no. :D 

 

Pooch

  • Upvote 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Hi ate kulasa, pooch and 9/9/2004

ok naman ako. Trying to keep busy. Rebuild my little life. Sinubukan naman niya bumawi. Pero this week wala ulit. Mahirap talaga pag andito parents nya. Ang hirap na pati pag punta ko ng malls kelangan ko magingat. 

Nanganak pala partner ng kapatid ko ngayon kaya mejo mixed feelings. Masaya kasi may pamangkin na ko. Malungkot kasi naiisip ko baka di ko na maexperience yung having a baby

  • Upvote 1

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now

×
×
  • Create New...