Hello all, thanks for stopping by. First off, thanks for all the great advice, stories, and posts on here, and special thanks to the creators and admins. This has been bugging me for a while, and I was so glad to discover this place, I really felt welcomed and moved by some of these stories, but most of all, hopeful. I truthfully am a forum noob, and have never really posted anything on a public board before, much less this topic. The reason I started this topic is because most of the threads I came across seemed geared to very young people, and while other posts did offer some insight, I decided to try my luck here, hoping for a more custom tailored response, respectably.
Straight to the goods then. I'm 'Andy' and soon to be 35, she's ‘Cindy’, in her 40s, and we are both single and 1st cousins. I have had a crush on her as far back as I can remember, our families were close when we were kids, and often spent weekends together. Because of our age gap at the time, her being a rebel teen who idolized Madonna and me with my Transformers and GI Joes, we were not very close. We hung out like average cousins, nothing special. Over the years she was always close to my thoughts, plus we stayed in touch on social media, but again noting special. Fast forward a little over two decades, during which we would occasionally see each other at large family gatherings, but no major contact beyond that. Next time, it was special, it felt different. Recently, for an outdoor family reunion, it just so happened that we were seated together and we practically spent the whole time chatting exclusively. I really love to make her laugh and I was doing just that, and so was she. Every now and then I'd get from her, what was probably a wholly innocent gesture, an arm touch and smile. I still refuse to read too much into this, this is uncharted waters and I know better than to treat it like the average crush. At one point during the party, a relative approached us and exclaimed to my cousin Cindy, "oh my, I thought this man was your boyfriend!" Our mutual relative was a little surprised when she realized it was me, but did not make a big deal or read too much into it. This made me back off, obviously my body language or a combination of ours both suggested we were a couple to anyone who did not know better. Cindy's reaction was amazing though, smiles and blush galore, she didn't even make an "Eww face" at the remark. Anyway, since then we have been texting occasionally, every other day, very short conversations because I know she is busy and a single mother. I remember one text she wrote, "I miss you." We exchange our problems and offer advice. On more than one occasion she mentioned how she just wants to be with a nice guy who accepts her, and how hard it is for her to find someone, I responded truthfully, that I'm pretty much in the same situation, looking for "Miss Right" and all that. We even spoke on the phone briefly, this is where it escalates a tiny bit.
Here is where it gets good, but really scary for me. This Saturday we have a date, for lack of a better word, or more accurately dinner and a movie. Yup, I went for it and she said yes! Holy holy crap! What do I do? I kind of have the evening planned, dinner at a nice restaurant, but I'm hoping to sub the movie with something romantic, like somewhere with a nice view of the city. I really just want to talk with her and spend time alone, and gauge her feelings a bit more. Anyway, I am out of my element here. I'm hoping someone reading this has been in a similar position. I am totally patient and would rather something happen organically on her end, than me trying to force it and be selfish. I would love tips for our date though, I will be myself of course, but I’m wondering if there’s little things I could say or do to hint at my romantic interest in her. I'm kind of nervous and don't want to make a fool of myself.
I have strong feelings for Cindy. She's amazing in terms of her fortitude, strength, and outlook on life. She is beautiful inside and out, she makes me laugh, and is always on my mind lately. A part of me believes we don't choose who we fall in love with, and it's not often a girl makes me feel this way. There's definitely some magic there, I just can't tell if its of the romantic kind or not.
Any advice from people who have been in similar situations, and my age group would be preferred, but all thoughts are greatly appreciated. Thank you kindly in advance!
I wanna at least try to start some kind of romantic relationship with my second cousin. I don't want to waste my life without ever actually trying at least once. I've known her since I was young and we've been attracted to each other since we first met. Something broke in me when I found out we were related. It lead me toward a long path of depression because I knew the chances of us being together were almost nonexistent, and it's only gotten worse with time. She feels the same or at least she's told me so numerous times. The problem is I think she's too scared to try. Maybe misinformed on the matter of cousin relationships and their genetic closeness as well. This is a delicate matter that could lead to either good things or horrible things. I'm having trouble figuring out how to talk to her and make her come around if she can. And if not, well at least I'll know for sure that I was doomed from the start. It will hurt like nothing else ever has but at least I tried.
Don't have the money or insurance for counseling. Like was the last suggestion in my other post. Wish I did though. I'm ready to complain to someone for a change.
Hi guys, I'm new to all this cousin stuff. Im from the UK so im well aware of the legal issues on cousins.
To cut a story short, ive always had a hunch that my cousin has liked me since we were young, but these past 4 years i think that shes been dropping hints that she likes me. Im 23 and shes 18, i know thats quite an age gap but the thing is, she is exactly like me when i was that age. We often acknowledge our similarities and we are both always a little shocked at how much we are the same. I should cringe at this but ive never really felt a real connection with anyone until recently. Ive had many girlfriends, but there was never a fulfilling feeling of being with them. but anyway ill cut to the story.
On odd occasions my cousin will ask me to go out and i will always say yes, but if i cant i will always rearrange to see her. When we first starting hanging out she would want me to tickle her arms, so basically she was very touchy feely with me. Then a year passed and she got a boyfriend which i was totally fine with but then they split up and we started hanging out abit more, she seemed more shy around me and was alot less touchy feely. Eventually she got another boyfriend and hes a really cool guy we get on, earlier this year she asked me to go round to her house for a massage and she asked to do a full body massage on me, i said no because i didnt want to feel awkward so i ended up just going with a back massage. she was wonderful at it she is amazing at massaging, but i couldnt help but feel a little aroused by it. so anyway i just put that to the back of my head and thought nothing of it because shes my cousin right? Anyway, when we go out as a family to a meal or something, i always catch her looking at me with such a beautiful grin after shes told a joke, even if im sat doing nothing while everyone is talking, i look over at her to catch her staring at me, we lock eyes and oh man does my heart race. It feels like we are the only people in the room. But this week we went to town and we got drunk, while we was out she was telling me that she gets more energy when there's more people and i understand that, so she invited one of her lad mates out. Before he arrived, baring in mind that she has a bf, she was telling me how nice and hot he was, which is what you do at 18 haha. I was looking forward to meeting him, we got on and he mentioned that he wanted a smoke. so i said we could go back to mine because my parents were on holiday and she was really up for that. so this lead me to think that she wanted to get with her friend.
When we arrived at mine we had a smoke, watched a few films and just generally had a good night then i said i was going to go to bed. as i was going up she asked me for a t-shirt to wear to bed, i was drunk and i took mine off and just chucked it at her as a joke. She laughed and said thanks, so she went off to get undressed and put my tshirt on. when i was in bed she messaged me and asked where i was sleeping, i said in my room and laughed. then we carried on talking but i cant remember what about, but i remember her saying "Let me have a nap first". at this point i was so tired i just fell asleep. eventually i woke up at 3 and could not get back to sleep, so i got up brushed my teeth and went to the living room. she came downstairs curiously in my tshirt so i presumed she slept in it and i asked her if she had done the deed with her friend. she laughed and said no as if it was gross. i was abit confused by this, but then it hit me. Was she downstairs with me at 3AM to finally admit to what she was feeling? I went so quiet i didnt know what to do and i felt a sense of tension between us, she said she was going upstairs to put her phone on charge and i told her to come back after. She did come back but she only sat with me for about 10 mins before going to wake her friend up so we could all sit downstairs together. anyway this is where it gets confusing, i try to message her and she will talk to me for a short while but its always a short while, i dont know if she feels awkward with me, honestly im so lost.
I have no idea what im feeling, what shes feeling i just need your guys opinions on the matter. are these obvious signs shes giving me or am i just getting the wrong end of the stick?
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Im sorry if this is a long story.
Throughout my childhood I always met my cousin every summer vacay and he was like a best friend. During our teens we lost contact then we started talking on facebook for a year and discovered that we had feelings for each other.That summer of that year we were both 18, we reunited in our homeland(we both live in diff countries) and we were both so happy and excited ,he would always message me and ask where I was so he would come see me. Even just talking to each other we were so happy and our convos would never end in family gatherings and eventually our families knew. Both of us are not religious because I was born and raised in canada and he was born and raised in france but our families in our country were, so they wouldnt let us be alone together or even talk. even though we both knew it was forbidden(no relationships before marriage), we still kissed and made out every time we had the chance and we were alone. Summer ended and he went back to france and i came back to canada, we promised we will keep in touch and that he will come to canada and we will get married, he talked about it to his father ( my uncle), that was the plan.
When I came back to canada it was my first year in uni, i met guys and dated a few and i partied alot and eventually i broke up with him. He never gave up he would always try to call me , message me and tell me he would give me a second chance. I knew I loved him deep down and was the only guy i loved, my first kiss and everything but i was denying it and i was convinced he would never come and tht he cheated on me cause he was always telling me and sending me screen shot of girls that want him. He kept messaging me for two years to keep in touch and i never messaged him first he always did, but when he did it meant the world to me. Fast forward two years of being apart, we were both 20, he decided to get married and he did to a french girl. I heard from my mum not him. A part of me died when i heard the news because i thought somehow we will eventually end up together.During his marriage he would still message me telling me he still has feelings for me and asked me to never lose contact with him ,to never forget himm, and that he will visit canada (cuz he worked and has enough money saved) and that if i get married he doesnt want to hear it and he wished i was his wife but he would also tell me he is happy with his wife.fast forward 2 yer later, our grandmother passed away, me and him messaged each other and it helped us heal together then he started telling me that he misses me. I am happy for him that he is happy but now i have to look after myself, i still only want him and i havent even kissed or been with a guy for years cuz i only think of him.I decided to block him of all social media, i know it will hurt him but he moved on i didnt, i need to help myself now, is that selfish of me? i hate keeping in touch with him becaause he always starts talking about our past and at times he would get frustrated and tell me its my fault that we didnt work out and we would have been so happy together. i hate and i cant hear that thats why i blocked him. i hope he understands.
its been 4 years since i saw him but i love him that as much as that first time and i always think about the maagical moments we had together, is it possible i will move on like he did?
i feel like i want to explode because i cant talk to anyone about it
Hello , I'm here of course because i have feelings for my cousin. I'm a 24yr old female and he is 26 yrs old , we are close though not as close as i'd like us to be. He is my grandma's sister's son by the way. I have had feelings for him off and on for years , and have had to deal with him having girlfriends and sex friends. He is currently single but had sex with some sex friend in february, and i'm always single. I haven't confessed my feelings to him because i feel there's no point , i know that if i confessed my feelings to him he would reject me. And i don't want to drive him away and make things weird and awkward between us. So i've sort of made up my mind that i should just give up on him and move on , and am now going through the stages of recovering from rejection. I've been seriously depressed since last month and i've been crying a lot. Before i was 95% sure he wasn't into me , now i'm 100% sure he isn't into me. Even if he doesnt find me to pretty/attractive i'm sure he sees me like a sister or like we are too closely related for something to be possible , there are many excuses your cousin could use for not being into you.
Anyway i've decided to put distance between us while i'm recovering and won't make any effort to contact him or hangout for the next few months. I decided not to contact him also because every time Its me doing it. If he wants to then this time he has to come forward , though i have no expectations he'd do so anyway. I don't think i can see him now without being depressed or crying. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep at night because of him and it seems like we were never meant to be and he's not worth me being into. Of course my feelings for him are more than just physical and there's more to him that i like but he seems to be a lost cause. I don't know if i believe him to be my soulmate but i think in my next lifetime things might be more likely to work out if we met. I'm tired of being obsessed with him and possessive , also i often get jealous of his friends for taking away his time to hangout with me. I often have dreams about him , and i touch myself sometimes when i do. I want to touch him almost everytime i see him and resisting my urges is unbearable , i have fallen asleep on his bed many times when i've been tired/sleepy and find his smell comforting but also a turn on. Also he is mostly into white girls and i'm black...
By the way , we are both not in school and we don't have jobs , and he drives but i don't and am in the middle of getting a license. He still lives with his parents and i live with my grandma and her other sister. He's a atheist and i'm a pagan , but we were raised in a christian family unfortunately so even if things did work out we would have to be very sneaky and secretive so the rest of the family wouldn't find out about us until we had money to get our own place. In a good month usually we would be able to hangout at his house and me and him would talk , maybe watch stuff or play videos games together in his room. We spend some holidays together , like halloween , thanksgiving sometimes and Xmas . We even spend our birthdays together since our birthdays are only a few days apart and since mine comes before his i usually get to do whatever i want when we hang out on my birthday. We have had sleepovers before as well , but not often and i usually have to go sleep in his mom's room .
It's not like i just met him a few years ago either , we have known each other since we were kids and used to play together and i have seen him many times at family reunions , back then i didn't have feelings for him of course . It was only after i moved to where he lives that i got closer to him and got to know him well. I feel like we really understand each other but i want to understand him more and for him to understand me more but he won't open up more to me. I feel like i can talk to him about almost anything and i've never had feelings for any other person like what i have for him , he is the only family member i actually see as family as well but i want to be more than family. I think even if he was my older brother i would still have feelings for him , sometimes i even see him as a older brother.
We are both scorpios , and i would have done things with him that i wouldn't even do with most guys but it seems he missed his chance now. The moves i have made have been many things , like posing a certain way on his bed and showing him my butt when i bent down to grab something . Wearing shirts that show my cleavage and hugging with and without a bra on and my boobs would often be on him when we hug and etc. Asking him about kissing and sexual things sometimes , like at the boardwalk i let him have the cherry from my virgin pina colada at the bar and i asked him about if he could do the cherry thing with his tongue. Us being at that bar at the boardwalk was the most confusing thing to happen recently. And this was after we had eaten pizza and we were making a lot of eye contact , though i'm sure he didn't catch on to what my eye contact meant. Anyway, at the bar i might have been imagining it but i think he was looking at my mouth . I don't know if i had something on my mouth or in my teeth but i was hoping he wanted to kiss me.He also walked in on me in the bathroom once which i am still confused about.
I've made many signs and signals that i was into him and he has been dense/oblivious and without a clue for years , or he knew and is choosing to ignore it. He would rather be into prettier women than be with me. When i revealed i had a incest fetish to him months ago he told me he had a cousin crush on some cousin i don't even know and he said she was very pretty. Last month , we went to the boardwalk together and when i asked him if he would hold my hand he pushed me away. He even told the guy at the stuffed animal game stand that we were cousins. And when i emailed him recently about how i wanted to be closer to him , he pushed me away again by saying he doesn't want to burden ppl by telling them his business.
When i revealed i had a incest fetish to him he said , "that's pretty neat, and quite common as well. I mean.. What do folks expect when you see family first compared to making friends as kids. Not like they talk to you about that stuff till you're older either. I don't think you're really an adult unless you've had one experience like a cousin crush or experimentation at some point in your life. "
And then he said , "On a side note, I've had cousin crushes too. Though it helps that the cousin I had a crush on isn't technically even related to me. Either way they're definitely super common. It just comes down to exposure really."
When i asked which cousin he said , "And to answer your question, my cousin kanasia. She's very pretty. "
He usually doesn't contact me and it always looks like I am the only one who is making things happen and is thinking too much about him lately. But, I'm not going to initiate contact with him anymore, if he is thinking of me then this time I expect him to come make a move. Though i doubt he would miss me or he'd even feel bad. I don't know if he is ever happy to see me or if he ever misses me. Seems like he is not even interested because if he was he would have dropped some kind of a hint in all the years i've liked him.
Everything points to us never working out the way i want , we don't have the same definitions of what love is or want the same type of relationship from people. He's stuck on wanting what most people want , a traditional monogamous relationship. I don't want a traditional monogamous relationship and the type of relationship i want is either a open monogamous relationship , harem , non-monogamous, swingers , or poly. As far as marriage goes i was never a supporter of it , and i have a different view of it than most so marrying him is up in the air if it was even possible for us to be together. Even if things did work out between us , i don't want to be a left over/last resort for him and be someone he just settled for.