First I'll start with a little backstory...
I'm 35, never married, no kids. She's 33, never married 3 daughters ages 9-16. We live in the same area, about a 15 min drive apart. We've known each other our entire lives but never really got close growing up. As kids we'd only see each other a few times a year on holidays and such. We never really connected back then but we were always cool and had a mutual respect for one another. We lost touch for a few years after highschool because she had good reason to separate herself from the family but we reconnected on social media when I was about 22 and that's when I started thinking of her romantically. To this day I'm the only family member on her dad's side she speaks to. Since then we've very slowly gotten to know each other more as people and friends. It started on social media and text here and there and now I see her maybe 4-5 times a year and we message each other weekly. We talk about what's going on in our lives, relationships a good bit and just normal friends/family chat. There was a conversation recently that sticks out but I'll get to that later... We both went through a hard break at about the same time last year and that really brought us closer together. So, I'll start there..
In May of last year we both went through our break ups. We vented to each other via text and were just kind of there for one another for a while. After that I didn't talk to her much for a couple months until October. She invited me to the movies with her and her daughters and it was nice, we all had fun. After that we started texting a lot more, daily infact, and I would flirt with her but never got a great response. Although at one point she said she wanted to go on a "date" (her words) and we went out in early December. We had dinner, drinks and saw a comedy show. It was great!! On the way home she started telling me what she wanted in a man, for her daughters and so on. I told her that someday I hoped to find the same things and she started saying how someday she hopes to have a place big enough for me to come and visit all my cousins, have dinner and just be a part of their lives. Then we both agreed that the bright side to our breakups that year was the opportunity to get to know each other more. I took her home, she gave me a big hug and we called it a night. We also planned to go out again when we could.
A few weeks after that the texting slowed down untill February when she invited me to a happy hour.
The happy hour was fun, I met a few of her friends, she joked that since it was a "new month" we were scheduled for a hang out and we even talked about another "just us" night out when spring came around.
I haven't seen her since but when talking about relationships a few weeks ago she said something interesting. I'm going to copy and paste the conversation below, I hope it's not too far out of context.
Me: my ex told me I love to strongly
Her: I do too! And im.to.honest and loyal and its a hard world for.us type of people to be in....But on the postive side i always think ull.never find anyone that can love u like i can i strongly believe that lol...and i like to.know im a good person thats the only thing that gives me.peace of.mind sometimes U have a great day to.
Me: Right I don't think I'll ever find anyone that loves me the way I love them and it's a shame because it's a lot of great things going to waste in my opinion.it blows my mind that people don't understand honesty in the consequences of dishonesty. over the years I've explained to honesty to my ex probably a million times she either doesn't understand it or doesn't care to be that type of person. I'm starting to think that most people are 100% selfish and they will put down anyone they have to to get what they want in the moment. Cruel world
Me again: Re read this message. When you say - but on the positive side.. U think that for real? Damn... Love you too. I'll love ya better than anyone else too. So thankful we've grown closer this past year. ❤
Her: No i said it right lol like if ur talkn to.ur.other half hahahah But im thankful we grown closer tooo
Me: I am talking to my other half. ❤. You are too.
(She gave a thumbs up to that, end of conversation)
Since then we've kept in touch on social media and text like always. At one point I offered to stay single until she got a bigger place so a woman didn't get in our way. She said that wouldn't be nessasary because we're family and me being with someone wouldn't change that. (Yes, I offered to wait for her, yes she turned that down)
It's almost summer so I'll be asking her out again soon.
She's moving into a bigger place in about 6 weeks from today.
So I'm just here wondering if others think that she seems interested romantically. Any advice on how to proceed with her in a more romantic way. What's a good way to "test the water" a little more?
I just want a healthy and happy relationship with her. I'd prefer our relationship be romantic but she'd have to want that too.
Thanks for reading, looking forward to any and all comments.
So my first cousin and I didn't grow up together but over the years we've built a relationship through letters he's in prison right now I've always felt like he started with me but I've never really been sure. He would ask me to send him pictures before he went to prison via cell phone, he was married then so I didn't think much of it I just figured because we hadn't seen each other in a while that he wanted to have a picture of me. I didn't feel the same way at first but I flirted with the idea because of the way that he made me feel I didn't feel like anything was wrong with it I honestly and I'm getting more comfortable with the idea of thinking of him sexually. I know for a fact that our family would not approve but lately he's been writing me letters and he always calls me gorgeous and he always tells me I'm beautiful and he wrote me in my last letter about the way my shirt showed my physique and that it was enticing. I don't want to confuse him being incarcerated with him having feeling because I know sometimes people say anything behind bars especially men who haven't seen women in a while but I can say that I felt him flirting with me before this the feelings have just seem to get deeper since we've been writing each other more. I want to express myself because it's killing me to know that someone that I have these feelings for I might not be able to be with but if I feel like he feels the same I wouldn't have a problem expressing myself I'm just not sure so I'm asking in regards to what I should do on my end with my feelings in the situation. I genuinely love him so even if he was repulsed with the idea I wouldn't just leave his side while he's going through this part of his life I genuinely was helping because I wanted to help a family member and I didn't expect to feel the way that I do. It feels impossible that I'm the only one that has these feelings and it's not perverted. I just understand him and I know he understands me please help me
Hi guys, I'm new to all this cousin stuff. Im from the UK so im well aware of the legal issues on cousins.
To cut a story short, ive always had a hunch that my cousin has liked me since we were young, but these past 4 years i think that shes been dropping hints that she likes me. Im 23 and shes 18, i know thats quite an age gap but the thing is, she is exactly like me when i was that age. We often acknowledge our similarities and we are both always a little shocked at how much we are the same. I should cringe at this but ive never really felt a real connection with anyone until recently. Ive had many girlfriends, but there was never a fulfilling feeling of being with them. but anyway ill cut to the story.
On odd occasions my cousin will ask me to go out and i will always say yes, but if i cant i will always rearrange to see her. When we first starting hanging out she would want me to tickle her arms, so basically she was very touchy feely with me. Then a year passed and she got a boyfriend which i was totally fine with but then they split up and we started hanging out abit more, she seemed more shy around me and was alot less touchy feely. Eventually she got another boyfriend and hes a really cool guy we get on, earlier this year she asked me to go round to her house for a massage and she asked to do a full body massage on me, i said no because i didnt want to feel awkward so i ended up just going with a back massage. she was wonderful at it she is amazing at massaging, but i couldnt help but feel a little aroused by it. so anyway i just put that to the back of my head and thought nothing of it because shes my cousin right? Anyway, when we go out as a family to a meal or something, i always catch her looking at me with such a beautiful grin after shes told a joke, even if im sat doing nothing while everyone is talking, i look over at her to catch her staring at me, we lock eyes and oh man does my heart race. It feels like we are the only people in the room. But this week we went to town and we got drunk, while we was out she was telling me that she gets more energy when there's more people and i understand that, so she invited one of her lad mates out. Before he arrived, baring in mind that she has a bf, she was telling me how nice and hot he was, which is what you do at 18 haha. I was looking forward to meeting him, we got on and he mentioned that he wanted a smoke. so i said we could go back to mine because my parents were on holiday and she was really up for that. so this lead me to think that she wanted to get with her friend.
When we arrived at mine we had a smoke, watched a few films and just generally had a good night then i said i was going to go to bed. as i was going up she asked me for a t-shirt to wear to bed, i was drunk and i took mine off and just chucked it at her as a joke. She laughed and said thanks, so she went off to get undressed and put my tshirt on. when i was in bed she messaged me and asked where i was sleeping, i said in my room and laughed. then we carried on talking but i cant remember what about, but i remember her saying "Let me have a nap first". at this point i was so tired i just fell asleep. eventually i woke up at 3 and could not get back to sleep, so i got up brushed my teeth and went to the living room. she came downstairs curiously in my tshirt so i presumed she slept in it and i asked her if she had done the deed with her friend. she laughed and said no as if it was gross. i was abit confused by this, but then it hit me. Was she downstairs with me at 3AM to finally admit to what she was feeling? I went so quiet i didnt know what to do and i felt a sense of tension between us, she said she was going upstairs to put her phone on charge and i told her to come back after. She did come back but she only sat with me for about 10 mins before going to wake her friend up so we could all sit downstairs together. anyway this is where it gets confusing, i try to message her and she will talk to me for a short while but its always a short while, i dont know if she feels awkward with me, honestly im so lost.
I have no idea what im feeling, what shes feeling i just need your guys opinions on the matter. are these obvious signs shes giving me or am i just getting the wrong end of the stick?
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