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I'd like to know how your cousins were/are hiding their feelings from you. Just so it might help me because its how I'm feeling that my cousins doing with me.

So, how are or was your cousins hiding their feelings from you and in what way?  :smiley:

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Hello there, guy from denmark here in love with my cousin (we are not together)

After having repressed my feelings for her for a long time without realising it, i had a moment of absolute clarity almost like an epiphany. And all the feelings i had burried deep poured out into my conciousness.

I then realised that the way she had been acting  "wierd" around me for years, just staring at me with an intense and admiring gaze, and being akward around me. Was so obviously signs of her feelings towards me. She is quite abit younger than me and was about 14 when she started acting this way. I have always loved her more than any other person in my life, and was starting to have romantic feelings towards her which confused me greatly and therefore i suppresed them.

I didnt see her much for the next couple of years as i was in the navy and also avoided seeing her i guess...

We met a few times a year, and each time we didnt talk much like we used to when she was younger, and we just stared into each others eyes and forgot everything else around us.

We have allways spent christmas eve together, however i missed a few during those years, but christmas 2012 it hit me like a hurricane...

She was now 17 and absolutely gorgeous! long shiny blond hair, big blue eyes and a smile that would melt the heart of any man.  As the day progressed we akwardly made conversation as we were the only 2 people under 50 :) 

The unbelievable tension that built between us was so powerfull.. i have never before felt something so amazing! We locked eyes and would stare into each others soul, it felt like we just sat there melting our souls together for what felt like hours. I felt higher than i ever have and it felt like my blood was on fire (in a good way) like a blood rush in the brain.

Just typing this now and i almost feel like that again :)

I felt so high, but also completely flabbergasted for weeks after. I couldnt think straight and walked around like a zombie just trying to process what had happened.

I know she must have felt the same as me i could just sense it, but she hasnt let it show much since. Shes probably trying to process it as i am, the difference being that i am older than her (28) she is 18 now, and so naturally i am much more emotionally mature.

We are talking better now, much less akward but still in a formal way. I try and initiate more physical contact (hugs and so on) but it is a slow process.

But when i see her, she sometimes lets down her guard and gives me that special look, a look like i am the only other person in the world. I can feel her complete adoration for me and its almost like a telepathic bond, an electric energi that makes my heart go crazy.

I understand that it must be very difficult for her, being so young and having these feelings for her 1st cousin, who is also much older than her. And so i try to give her space and not bother her to much, but it is hard. I have never felt this way for anyone else and doubt i ever will, in a way she has allways had my heart and will have it forever.

I have all my life had an empty feeling inside of me, like a piece of me is missing. I have without thinking about it tried to fill the void with videogames, and later cannabis. I am recovering from porn addiction which made the emptiness go away for just a little while.

The only times in my life when i can remember not feeling like that, have been in her company. When i am with her i feel no hunger, no thirst, sadness, anger, frustration. I feel tranquility and bliss, i am complete.

(writing this made me very emotional, and i am crying my eyes out right now :)  but it is a beautiful sadness, because it comes from the love i have for her.

I know this became a bit of a novel about me and im sorry about that, but i hope you can relate to some of it atleast.

I think about her every day, and see her out of the corner of my eye often, but it is not her ofcourse just someone who looks like her. Every time my phone makes a bip i get an adrenaline rush, but it is never her.  Even though i am sad and miss her dearly, i have come to accept that we may never be and i find comfort just knowing that i love her.

I think i will listen to some cheesy love songs now to cheer myself up :)

Many greetings, ebbe.

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Nice story ebbe, hope you find peace in your life & the happiness you deserve with her  :smiley: 

Sorry its taken a while to reply back.

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brother,

I strongly think that u should tell her of your heart.

It's been 4 years for your crush.

The hints she drops for you are of love, dude.

Turn your crush into partenership of all the lives.

All the best.

God bless!

(y)

@ebbe

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Thank you Nessa, may you also find what you seek :)

if only it was that easy samapartofamy, if only ..

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Thank you Nessa, may you also find what you seek :)

if only it was that easy samapartofamy, if only ..

Thanks ebbe, i will try my best to find what i seek  :smiley:

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Hello there, guy from denmark here in love with my cousin (we are not together)

After having repressed my feelings for her for a long time without realising it, i had a moment of absolute clarity almost like an epiphany. And all the feelings i had burried deep poured out into my conciousness.

I then realised that the way she had been acting  "wierd" around me for years, just staring at me with an intense and admiring gaze, and being akward around me. Was so obviously signs of her feelings towards me. She is quite abit younger than me and was about 14 when she started acting this way. I have always loved her more than any other person in my life, and was starting to have romantic feelings towards her which confused me greatly and therefore i suppresed them.

I didnt see her much for the next couple of years as i was in the navy and also avoided seeing her i guess...

We met a few times a year, and each time we didnt talk much like we used to when she was younger, and we just stared into each others eyes and forgot everything else around us.

We have allways spent christmas eve together, however i missed a few during those years, but christmas 2012 it hit me like a hurricane...

She was now 17 and absolutely gorgeous! long shiny blond hair, big blue eyes and a smile that would melt the heart of any man.  As the day progressed we akwardly made conversation as we were the only 2 people under 50 :) 

The unbelievable tension that built between us was so powerfull.. i have never before felt something so amazing! We locked eyes and would stare into each others soul, it felt like we just sat there melting our souls together for what felt like hours. I felt higher than i ever have and it felt like my blood was on fire (in a good way) like a blood rush in the brain.

Just typing this now and i almost feel like that again :)

I felt so high, but also completely flabbergasted for weeks after. I couldnt think straight and walked around like a zombie just trying to process what had happened.

I know she must have felt the same as me i could just sense it, but she hasnt let it show much since. Shes probably trying to process it as i am, the difference being that i am older than her (28) she is 18 now, and so naturally i am much more emotionally mature.

We are talking better now, much less akward but still in a formal way. I try and initiate more physical contact (hugs and so on) but it is a slow process.

But when i see her, she sometimes lets down her guard and gives me that special look, a look like i am the only other person in the world. I can feel her complete adoration for me and its almost like a telepathic bond, an electric energi that makes my heart go crazy.

I understand that it must be very difficult for her, being so young and having these feelings for her 1st cousin, who is also much older than her. And so i try to give her space and not bother her to much, but it is hard. I have never felt this way for anyone else and doubt i ever will, in a way she has allways had my heart and will have it forever.

I have all my life had an empty feeling inside of me, like a piece of me is missing. I have without thinking about it tried to fill the void with videogames, and later cannabis. I am recovering from porn addiction which made the emptiness go away for just a little while.

The only times in my life when i can remember not feeling like that, have been in her company. When i am with her i feel no hunger, no thirst, sadness, anger, frustration. I feel tranquility and bliss, i am complete.

(writing this made me very emotional, and i am crying my eyes out right now :)  but it is a beautiful sadness, because it comes from the love i have for her.

I know this became a bit of a novel about me and im sorry about that, but i hope you can relate to some of it atleast.

I think about her every day, and see her out of the corner of my eye often, but it is not her ofcourse just someone who looks like her. Every time my phone makes a bip i get an adrenaline rush, but it is never her.  Even though i am sad and miss her dearly, i have come to accept that we may never be and i find comfort just knowing that i love her.

I think i will listen to some cheesy love songs now to cheer myself up :)

Many greetings, ebbe.

My experience was kind of similar to yours

I was younger (37) and he was older (44).

But we were intimate twice then he went away.

I really missed talking to him and had regrets of

not really telling him my deep feelings. By the time

he returned I was a mom and not available. We

became best friends talked on the phone a lot and

I tried really hard to not seem weird. I did not like

making eye contact and hugs were out the question.

I remember a family member mentioning him

buying a house with a lady. I was so hurt. Now

he put off vibes. I ended up moving out of state

and we lost contact b/c he got in a bit of trouble.

When I returned for short visits there was no point

in contacting him b/c we were both in a relationship.

Last year I moved back to our home state. One of

the first few things I did was find him. I started out

slow to find out his status. He was single too. Then

I took my time with him laughing abt old times

and catching him up on my life. He actually started

asking why I always acted weird when he was around.

And why I would rush him to leave when he stopped

by to visit me. I thought very hard and quickly. Then

I told the truth, because I really, really loved

him. He told me he loved me since the day we

were intimate. We have been a couple since then

I'm 37 and he's 44.

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